Cancer was slowly fading away.. And we thought it was almost practically gone.. until dad fainted because there wasn’t enough air. My dad was once a hot 21 year old player/boxer that wasn’t afraid of shit. At the age of 49, he got cancer. It’s been over 10 months that we haven’t laughed the same way we did last summer, we didn’t sit together with nothing on our minds. I know enshallah soon he will be fine but I just miss us being normal. He even once said to mum ”I want to become normal again” it broke my heart, I wish I had cancer instead of him. And yesterday, he held me in his arms and said “The only reason I don’t want to go it’s because I will miss you” I couldn’t hold myself, I started crying.
This morning, Nouy, my bestfriend asked me: What do u miss the most?
Well, I miss being happy.
But I know that it could of gone way worse, so I thank god for each second my dad is breathing :)
THIS WEEKEND I FINALLY WENT TO SHARM EL SHEIK AND GOT A LIGHT FUCKING TAN. I usually like to get REALLY tan but this time we’ve only been there for like 2 days, it was so awesome I saw really dangerous fishes and stuff, saw one with needles and swordfishes AND MOTHERFUCKING JELLYFISHES THAT I HATE SO MUCH.
My conseil de class is on the 28th, that’s the day where my teachers and the 2 presidents of the class decide if I get to go pass or fail. I have a fucking french test tomorrow on verbs, should really get off my laptop and work.
I’m so sad I’m leaving in 3 weeks or so, yet I’m so fucking exited of coming back :)
If I’m going to Paris for a year, then I don’t want to visit Egypt even for a day because I’m not going to live there forever and I want to enjoy it.
I just hope life wouldn’t fuck with my mind as much it is now. Don’t want to have any other problems.
I want to sleep on the brazilian beaches <3 and feel happy, I want to dance and not think about all the motherfuckers around me. I want to dream <3 but now I have to work.
GOOD BYE MOTHERFUCKERS x
Used my black and white polaroid film and I’m pretty sure I will buy more of those :D
Vacation’s almost over.. No, it’s over. Tomorrow’s my last day and I just realized I wasted it. Anyway dad’s leaving again, he’s going to do the operation, it isn’t really what you think as in surgery it’s what they call “une greffe”, they take something inside his vertebral columns and put it in these bags where he stays in a sterile room ( translated it from google translate, it means in a glass room where its anti-bacterial and he can’t have any contact with the “exterior world”) I seriously hope for the best and for him to be happy and we could go back to our normal ordinary lives :)
When I think of what I did this vacation I realize I spent a lot of time with family, so I take back what I said, it’s been such a beautiful vacation :)
